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25 October 2012 @ 11:20 pm
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First off, I'm sorry for worrying everybody. I really think that cutting myself was the rock bottom I needed to really give me the kick start back into life. I talked to my mom and were calling the mental health centre. I'm going through and private locking all my negative posts and this'll be a new beginning. I've decided to go to Japan and Korea for a couple months next summer and I'm ready to work towards getting better. Thank you guys for everything, it really, really means more to me than I can express. I'm ready to get back into life (and LJ AND TWITTER) and start again. I love you guys.
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02 September 2012 @ 10:13 pm


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► Taeminnie says: LET'S ALL BE FRIENDS :D and you can't ignore Taemin, can you?

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李泰民 ☼
26 August 2012 @ 01:02 am

If you don't have me on Twitter, you probably don't know how much I've been /agonizing/ about whether or not I should continue writing fanfiction. I don't want this to be some big suspense post, so yes, I've decided I will continue :) And I'd also like to apologize profusely for once again dropping of the map. If that's all you wanted to hear from me, then just skip the rest of this post, it's basically my reasons for stopping and how I plan to continue!

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  • Writing stories is fun. I /love/ to write. I have no plans to become an author or journalist or anything, but I immensely enjoy the relief that writing brings me. It's my own personal outlet. 
  • I don't believe my oppas are really dating. I guess it could classify as my own fantasies. But to be honest, they're really just stories.
  • I'm too lazy to create my own "world". I don't plan on becoming an author, as I said before, so I don't plan on having to learn character creation and other such things. This is only just fun.
  • It brings me closer to fandom. It's really hard for me, believe it or not, to befriend people in fanfiction without a legitimate reason. Writing my stories allows me to connect to other fans, who are just as sane as I am, that enjoy fangirling with me.
  • They will never read this. They won't. It's never going to happen honestly, and I don't want them to read this. This is my own personal way of fangirling. 
  • I don't even honestly think about them when I write. It's almost like they are characters to me. The real people I see in interviews and varity shows, they don't even connect to my stories. I don't even relate them to one another. I respect them as people, and even though most of them have no problem with fanfiction as far as I know, I have never meant to offend anyone. The characters share the same name, and I suppose personalities (though I don't believe the oppas are exactly the way they act on television), but my charcters are just that, characters. 
  • I will continue to write. But I plan on writing plot stories. PWP is fun sometimes, but I feel as if sometimes I'm dumbing myself down as a writer. I've had so many plot ideas for a long time, but PWP is what people like, so I'm guilty of heeding to the reader. If nobody reads once I switch to plots, at least my conscience will be clear.
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I had a revelation of sorts today. When I type it, it's going to sound stupid because it's hard to express through a keyboard how much this revelation shook me. Even typing it makes me feel lame, but I'm okay with being lame. I'm okay with being me. It's funny how those five words seem to sum up my everything, my anxiety, my stress, my constant worry. They sum up my whole revelation in just a few simple words that took a second to type.

I'm okay being me. 

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So here's what I plan to do (but might not do because it's just how I'm feeling now):
  • I will write my damn fanfiction. I love it. Other people might think it's creepy, but god, I love it so much and it makes me happy. And that's all that really matters.
  • I will smile more. Because it's been proving that smiling, even when you don't mean it, genuinely makes you happy. 
  • I will go out more. I love you guys, but I have an iPhone. I'm fully capable of keeping in touch from the outside world. Because I honestly feel the best when I'm outside, with friends and family, away from technology, and just forgetting about my problems.
  • I will read more books. Because, I still feel my happiest, on a park bench, paperback in hand, lost in some good literature. I'm sometimes anti-social, and that's okay.
  • I will love Korea, and while I'm there I will enjoy myself so much. But until then, I will enjoy life in the moment. Because always living for the future doesn't give you much time to live.
  • I will let myself feel sadness where sadness is unavoidable. But, I will also not dwell in it. I will feel it, let it out and always remember there are happier times to come.
  • I will live my life. God, this is the main one. It's a rollercoaster. There will be sad times, there will be great times and there will be times of utter joy. You take the good with the bad, it's all part of the experience.
  • I will laugh until my stomach hurts. It's so fucking corny, but there's no greater feeling.
  • I will not get so caught up with looks. It's important to take care of yourself, but obsession is never good on any level.
  • I will keep up with my languages. Because I love them for the right reasons. Because ultimately all I want is to connect with people of all ethnicity. 
  • I will keep up my exercise and healthy eating habits. Because I love the feeling, not only the looks, that come with it.
  • I will make new friends. Because, time goes on and friends will come and go. But they make life infinitely better.
  • I will learn all the things I ever wanted to learn. Guitar, French, Japanese.
  • I will not let opportunities pass because of fear. Like sky-diving with my father. I think it'll be amazing!
  • I will write hand-written letters, and keep a written diary. Because paper is a wonderful thing.
  • I will live. That's all there is to it. It's so easy to get caught up in life, but sometimes we just have to stop. Breath. And take it as it comes.

Me. Right at this moment. Happy.
humeur?: optimisticoptimistic
李泰民 ☼
27 July 2012 @ 04:18 am
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